Saturday, July 18, 2009

Who knew?

So this is me!

I know I am a dork right?  Aww I can't believe you called me a dork.  Now I feel bad.

I have a date with a boy tomorrow which may possibly be why I am putting up a photo of myself smiling and wondering if I am okay enough.  I hate that.

I have been single of the past year or so and during that time I have had tremendous growth in my life.  I got my beloved dog from  a local Great Dane Rescue (he is my love). I started eating right.  I hiked and I ran through the woods! I lost 50 pounds!  I started finding my spiritual side again with an amazing teacher and some incredible people...

And now I feel all nervous and gross and freaky.  Just because I am going to see a movie and get some Indian food with a boy.  Reality check time...I will be myself! I love myself! I have changed!  Okay three affirmations and I am good to go.  

Hugs and kisses and wish me luck!

31 comments:

Melissa said...

Ohh Sue.

You are the most fun, lovely woman I know. I mean that. Please do not let a boy get in your head to the extent you doubt yourself.

Don't forget I knew you when you were 50 pounds heavier and so insecure and I saw you blossom into the fabulous woman you have become.

Love you.

Christina said...

Adorable picture. Have a great time on your date tomorrow and don't worry about anything. You're awesome!

Sue said...

Melissa...oh i love you too and thank you. I am fine, just having some flashbacks. I just need to remember the message and be calm.

Christina..Yay! Here I was fishing for compliments and there you are! Thank you so...

Michelle said...

Oh Sue...just go to a movie and have dinner. Then on Monday just come with me and take a walk and we can talk and process.

You really should not worry so.

Naomi said...

I don't think you need luck- you are totally adorable and charming. How could he not see that and be bowled over?

Just have fun!

Erica said...

You're gorgeous now stop this nonsense ;) I hope you have so much fun on the date! Please post pics of your great dane-they are such incredible dogs :)

{Kimber} said...

You r adorable!!!'
congrats on ur weigh loss!! That is awesome can't wait to hear about ur date!!

Sue said...

Hi Michelle...I know. Just a momentary freak out I think. I am looking forward to seeing you Monday. email me?

Naomi..Thank you. I have felt so good for so long and I have been single and today just so...yuck. Kind of scared of rejection I guess. I need to concentrate on what got me to be at peace and not let go of what I have learned.

Erica...Oh I will! I was going to do my next post on him. he is such a doll.

Kimber...thank you...sorry I am being so needy ;) I need to spend some time tonight meditating and feeling the Moments around me.

Jenny said...

hey girl! I just left you an email saying i've never seen what you look like before but now that I've seen your picture and glowing smile -- i have to say, you are GORGEOUS!! you're gonna knock that guys socks off :)!

Jocelyn said...

The way you're feeling is so completely normal. You wouldn't really be ready for dating if you didn't have this type of jitters.

Here's what I can tell you, from the photo: I wish I were a nice boy and could date you, cuz you'se waaaaay cutie.

Debra Kay said...

I think you are more than ok enough. Just have fun, it's a date, not a dental appointment.

Yaya said...

Oh my gosh, you're BEAUTIFUL! Stop beating yourself up!

mannequin said...

Oh.... I hope everything was dandy AND I can't wait to hear the details.
I'll be back; come get me!

Sue said...

Jenny...it was really sweet of you to email me. I will write you back!

Jocelyn...Are you hitting on me? ;)

Debra...i know, I feel better already. I just let anxiety get the better of me.

Yaya...Sorry. I was being Blind for awhile and not listening to what I know is true.

Mannequin...oh I will. Promise.

april said...

You are adorable as well!

Have fun on your date! Just be yourself and everything will go great!

jennifer said...

Just by reading your charming post, I think you'll do wonderful. Be yourself and have a nice time!

Lisa Allender said...

Hi--Thank you for stopping in at LIsa Allender Writes, and commenting on the passing of Walter Cronkite.
I read your blog just now, and it looks like you're off to a great start.
If you'd like to Follow my Blog, I'll Follow yours, too!
Peace,yo. ;)

icancarryallthebagsandthebabiestoo said...

First, I hope you like this Mister and that you have a great time. New romances and crushes are so exciting! Enjoy and savor!

That said, as women we endure a huge social pressure and have been taught (both subtly and overtly) that our appearance determines our value. Simultaneously we're taught that our social value is greater when pair when a man thinks that we are beautiful/valuable enough to commit to.

Unlearning this is hard. And unlearning it in your head is a lot easier than your heart.

Go ahead and love yourself. It is the bravest thing that you can do. Feel proud of who you are are feel deserving of the affection another person has to give you. I do not know you outside of the few blog posts that I've read... and already I am struck by what a caring person you are.

Try to remember that you have nothing to prove. There is no acceptance or rejection.

Kerrie said...

We all feel like this, but you look great and full of fun.I hope your date goes well.

Sue said...

April..Thank you! and I am always myself.

Jennifer...so kind of you!

Lisa...I am following you! I finally figured out how to do it

icancarry...I like you a lot. You really strike me as someone to look up to big sister like! So kind of you to write me when you were having such a bad day.

Kerrie...Thanks sexy!

icancarryallthebagsandthebabiestoo said...

Sue,

I like you a lot too!

skinnysweetpea said...

We just became blog friends, but I can already tell you're a great person! And you're adorable to boot! I hope you have a wonderful date with a new boy today! And if he's not interested, it's not about YOU, it's about him. But I'm sure you will have a fabulous date!!!

Sue said...

Icancarry...YAY!!!!

Skinny...thanks so much. It went okay, but most importantly I am calm again and happy!

Griffin's # 1 fan said...

Oh first dates are the worst, esp. if you have been outta the loop for a while. I'm sure you will be fine, you seem like a fun girl! Btw-I'm such a dork too :)

Liam said...

You look good to me. I'm sure everything went great.

Rachel said...

Hope you had a blast! Great affirmations - I know you won't let anything shake that attitude :)

Tee aka The Diva's Thoughts said...

You are too adorable. Did you have fun on your date?

icancarryallthebagsandthebabiestoo said...

I just included you in a blog that I wrote about my favorite new blogs!

I hope that you like it.

One of my favorite things about the blog is how lively your comments get!

There's just something about you that makes people happy!

journeyman said...

I'm glad that "icancarry.." shared your blog. I have had many friends that have struggled with their self-image. You seem to be a great success story... keep sharing!

As far as that boy... There is nothing to be worried/anxious about. Odds are that he is feeling the same.

Take care!

heyitstay said...

OMG girl have fun on your date!!!

4 Lettre Words said...

Ahhh...now I got the details on Blossom. He's a beauty, for sure!